This Year

This year i have asked the same question to a lot of people, how was this year for you? And, despite the personal differences, we all agreed that this year in particular has been really really intense. For me it’s been an awful year that I want to get pass as soon as possible, but also a year for reflection, to think about my inner process and to learn from it.

In particular this semester has been, the only one I think, that I hated most of my classes. For this reason I’m now in danger to fail one them, and it’s making me really anxious, because this never happened to me before, cause of that I’m drinking a lot of Melissa tea so I can sleep a little better. Also I’ve been really tired, I don’t know why, but for this I’ve been skipping a lot of classes and I feel guilty about it as well. Anyways, university aside, I think it’s been a good year because I’ve met really nice people, people I’d like to keep forever in my life, and I cannot be anymore grateful for that. I also re discovered Madonna and it makes me feel like a good gay man.

Now, the only thing I’m thinking is to pass all my classes and after that I think I’m going to be at the beach, tanning and drinking mojitos and whine. I totally deserve that cause this year I’ve put all of my efforts and it seems that it wasn’t enough, and I’m okay with that, I only want my well-deserved rest. 

An Ambition

I’ve always wanted to be famous, i think this is one of my most irrelevant and surreal ambitions, but it’s something that always atractted me. And i mean it in every way posible, so its not really important what’s the main thing that would make me famous, as long as i make it.

I think this idea appeals to me because i have a fixation on the things that society allows you to do for being famous, for example i would like to put my paintings or myself in a museum, i would love to see all of the artsy stuff being stared and comtemplated, i also think that  with this kind of exposure it is posible to do outrageuos things.

I think i’m inspired only by the things i find beutiful, and those kind of things are worth of being seen. So, i dont think im inspiring myself in anyone in particular, but in a bunch of stuff that drags my attention, in general they are weird and fun and crazy and colorful, and that makes me think bigger and bigger.

For me, to achieve this ambition it would mean to have the approval of lots of people who agrees that the things i made are worthy, and also it would implies a lot of fun situations that i would be involved in, to be free and to do what i want without worrying about anything else.